Am I psycho enough?

18. 3. 2024
Kamila Kotoučková

I’ll tell you what’s going on. And you tell me what you think.

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I studied economics and administration. With my finger up my nose, because what has logic and order, I understand, what I understand, I can learn. I may never have been enthusiastic about it, but I enjoyed accounting and microeconomics and economics, as long as it wasn’t economy. Economics and economy are two different things. Don’t ask me the difference, I just remember the feeling.

I worked in project management for 8 years, on the soft projects, not the engineering and construction ones. I loved it. Setting up a system, working in that system, tinkering with the details and then communicating it in different ways, that’s where I’m at home.

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But in the meantime, I got even more excited about personal development. 

Partner communication. Nonviolent communication. At first I wanted to fix my partners before I understood that it’s about self-connection, recognizing of my own feelings and needs, and honest self-expression. Not about fixing people. 

Then educational projects. Dialogue, respect, listening, responsibility. It took me about a year to fully understand what it was all about (if I can even say that).

Then Vedic meditation, yoga and a bit of spirituality. 

And then it was on. Personal development turned into professional development. A coaching training. Another coaching training. Positive intelligence. Psychotherapy training. It took a couple of years and now here I am.

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I’M A COACH, not a couch. And A THERAPIST launching my practice. From the nature of all the feedback and reflection, quite promising, I’d say. 

But I am NOT a PSYCHOTHERAPIST. I don’t have a degree in psychology.

A no-go for some. For another, systemic nonsense. For others, nice to have, but one can be a solid therapist without psychology. Not the “but it helps clients” kind. But the “I know what I’m doing, I’m doing it based on training and ethics and under supervision and continuing education with humility and respect for the craft, the clients and the professional community” kind. 

I have no doubt that I am and will be a solid therapist without “psycho”. Because of my humility and respect. And because the addiction to perpetual growth will never let me out of this constant “improving myself”. I enjoy it. 

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What I don’t enjoy is having to constantly explain and defend why I’m a unicorn outside the system. Well, I am. Unfortunately, not everyone who’s 18 and deciding what to do next knows without a doubt that they’re going to be a baker (It’s a well-known and widely spread Czech saying).

It wasn’t until I was in the sauna on Thursday that it dawned on me that I could actually finish my formal education in the humanities, to have a university degree in the humanities, which is required (for now) to practice psychotherapy.

WOW!

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So. Do I go back to university at the age of 34? Does that mean that I will have to be in Prague at least once every two weeks? Will I have to borrow money from my dad because I don’t have the money for another load of education right now? Because a) I’m not a marketer (yet) and I haven’t managed to sell myself enough to my private clients. Because b) I didn’t get the psychotherapy job I wanted because I don’t have a university degree in humanities. Which came first, the chicken or the egg?

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And how does this fit into my long-term vision? How does it fit with the fact that I’m temporarily in the Czech Republic and want to get back to Barcelona as soon as possible? 

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How does it fit with the fact that after years of traveling, moving, and searching, I finally know that I want to live in the “land of the eternal sun,” by the waves of the sea, to the rhythm of salsa and the sound of Spanish? By the way, I’ve been doing pretty well with Spanish this year, I’m proud of myself.

So tell me.

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How important is formal education to you besides practical training? Does it have to be? Should it be? Or is it not needed? 

And most importantly. Should Kamila go for it?

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